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Mar. 5th, 2011 @ 09:30 pm ...
Current Location: Afghanistan
Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: The Presets - If I Know You
Today I am merely here... that is all.
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Mar. 4th, 2011 @ 07:54 pm Catching up...
Current Location: Afghanistan
Current Mood: coldcold
Current Music: Soulive - Alkime
Life hasn't been too bad out here, or eventful for that matter.

Things that have transpired in my absence from LJ:

- Errol (freeadspace) has left, and gone to a differect base. (No longer do I get to meet with my buddy on my off days.)
- I've managed to save a bit of cash for my return, and hit my financial goals that I made.
- Planned and began to solidify our trip to Las Vegas.
- Passed a CLEP for Analyzing and Interpretting Literature.
- Received a few packages... though I am still waiting on a few others that are lost in the system.
- Finished acquiring my deployment gifts (mine and others).

So, other than that I have been trying to stay motivated with studying, and reading. My repetitious life has been just that... repeitious.

To be continued...
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Feb. 26th, 2011 @ 11:24 pm Ahh...
Current Location: Afghanistan
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: James playing guitar in the background.
LJ... we meet again... mwahahahaha!

So, there haven't been too many a development in my life thus far, but I wish I hadn't slacked on this.

Trying to back track. There is not much. My friends here are at the moment are steadfast, with the exception of one, and I wish him good luck in his travels (freeadspace). I must say that it was a sad day when I found out Errol was departing to a different place. I grew fond of our weekly meetings, and though it wasn't anything close to Italia. It was good times, and reminded us of old times. It is times like these that make me miss all my friends even more than I already do.

Other than my emotional ramblings. I have committed myself to a fair amount of reading since I have been here. I have 2 3/4 books logged, and I am looking to finish two more during my time here. I believe it is the beginning of something new in my life and I am happy for it. I never thought that I would find a decent amount of novels to hold my interest.

To be continued when I have a little more time...
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Jan. 20th, 2011 @ 05:18 pm Ahhhhh!
Current Location: Afghanistan
Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Current Music: Various - Rocknrolla OST

(That is all.)
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Jan. 19th, 2011 @ 09:41 pm Taking in the music.
Current Location: Afghanistan
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Zero 7 - Spinning
That is all... I am listening to my musica, and chilling. How much better can it be before a much needed day off? Soon I will venture to the gym for a fantastic back day coupled with cardio, then followed by a relaxing night with a book and my thoughts. It only gets better.


Peace outside...
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Jan. 17th, 2011 @ 08:59 pm (no subject)
Current Location: Afgahnistan
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Radiohead - The Bends
The weeks are rolling by, and I find myself looking forward to my days off. Much like any other deployment I've been on I look forward to small things in the hopes that they help to pull me through. Time off, (now) meeting with Errol, paychecks, coffee in Canada, and wasting away in front of the puter when I get the chance. These are the small things.

The last few days have been as relaxed as one could imagine. Being sick with whatever it is I have will do that to anyone. I've just been trying to move past, and recoup so I can make my way back to the gym. It is one part of my routine that I have missed these past couple of days. Because of this sickness I've filled my post-work hours with watching "How I met your Mother", and that is about all.
Then today I delved into things I hadn't wanted to run around with... and by that I mean I began playing a little bit of Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2, and I don't think I gave the game chance enough when I actually owned it. I just wasn't a fan of the hype. Anything that is hyped up by people instantly turns me off to it. It is odd how that works, but I haven't embraced many things until much later because of there popularity. I suppose it is how I am, and forever will be.
That is really about all... as I've mentioned before my days are blurring together. I am looking forward to meeting up with Errol this week. I may ask to change the venue, but I suppose we'll see, ey?

I really have nothing more to write about at the moment. It had been a moment though and I had to jot down something. It is kind of sad, but these things happen.

Until the next time I feel like writing...
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Jan. 10th, 2011 @ 06:04 pm To all the girls I loved before.
Current Location: Afghanistan
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
Current Music: Incubus - Light Grenades
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I've lived for myself, and only myself for too long. I see this, and so have more recent and unfortunate lovers.
At this point in my life I feel as though I can only agree with the horrible truth that has been presented to me time, and time again. It makes me eternally sad at my inability to live for another (in certain regards). I'm the X-factor in my relationships. I see it all too clearly now. The sad thing is that I'm too set in my ways to make myself anew. I'm the only one who can make these changes. In the wake of the HMS Bobby, I have capsized many a vessel, and none of them were small in any way. The ships sailed were more colossal than mine by far, because they knew how to live for themselves and for that person that they held most sacred. I can only weep at the man I've become, and the man that I am no longer. This eternal sadness, I carry it inside me. I carry it inside, because I need something to tell me how not to live. I try to undo what I've become, and sometimes there's no sign of change in my character. For those who have had to deal with the monster that is Bobby. I apologise, because in no way did I ever mean to hurt you.

My heart grows heavy with each word I type, but in the end it is not helping. I need to just change my ways... I need to be sensitive again, and learn to live for more than just myself. Saying it is easy. Putting it into action is an entirely different realm altogether.
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Jan. 9th, 2011 @ 11:00 pm Another day, again.
Current Location: Afghanistan
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: Limp Bizkit - 9 Teen 90 Nine
(This is going to be way less detailed, because I hit the escape key a few times and voila! My post was fully erased.)

I made mention of the eternal "Ground Hog Day" that is my life as of late. It shows no sign of letting up, but I will deal with it all accordingly. Consequently, I have been in a highly contemplative mood the last few days, and I am done with it all. This mood has presented itself because I need to make some major decisions soon. The two trails at my cross-roads are soon upon me, and I need to figure out what to do. Both are grand options, but I need to decide which I should run with to the hills. Do I stay in and live the life that I am living? Progressing through the ranks of the ultimate machine. Or do I let it all go and pursue what I said I would do when I was younger? Resetting the clock to zero, and being happy knowing I'm doing something I would love. Both would be a good life, because I would enjoy it all.
This state that I am in is able to get me thinking about all kinds of things, and I must shake it before I do drastic things. That is what thinking can do to me, and that part I don't enjoy too much.
(Don't you love the lack of detail, and all the generalities?)

Anywho, the day has played out well. My underling and I did a little work. I avoided a grand arrangement that would have made life a lot harder. I am now just waiting on the end of my day... and a shot at the gym. As much as I don't want to I will be escaping life through my music and cardio. Wish me luck, and I'll be back on this medium soon.
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Jan. 7th, 2011 @ 04:07 pm Things you do whilst deployed.
Current Location: Afghanistan
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: La Roux - Bulletproof (Manhattan Clique Remix)
The day is like any other my friends. (People I know barely use this thing anymore, but whatever.) I come into work to handle a little business, get my game plan together, and I do this while thinking about food and its ability to quell not only my hunger, but my irritability. A full Bobby is a happy Bobby.

There are moments where I look at this monitor, and I debate. I debate about purchasing items that I don't need. All I have is time to browse most days. I browse for material things that I have no use for here, but that I can enjoy when I get back. If I had my way I would purchase many things with the extra money I make while I am here, but then I wouldn't be a responsible young adult. I would be like everyone else... who those people are is beyond me, but I hear tale of the things they do.

The rest of my time is looking up things, research if you will. Questions that I haven't had the time to answer, or at least to look up the answer. I scour, and scour until I have come to that dreaded sign that states, "The End of the Internet. Please stop here, collect your things, and return to the starting point." It is a daily occurrence, and is welcome I suppose.

Ending this on a good note is the way I should make most of my posts. I can't say that it will always happen this way, because most times I use this forum to vent. Anywho, I will hopefully be meeting up with Mr Errol (freeadspace) tomorrow, and it will be quite welcome. It's been a while, and it is always good times when Errol and I get together.

Peace outside.
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Jan. 5th, 2011 @ 06:09 am Another wonderful day...
As I sit listening to various songs by Royksopp. I can't help but wonder what lies ahead for me. Their will soon be a lot on my plate, and possibly my loved ones as well. I can only ask will it all play out the way I would like.

For some things it has been a long time coming. Some decisions that I have sat, decided, wavered back to indecision, and have once more settled on. It is sad how I work sometimes, but when it comes down to life changing decisions I weigh everything. It can be good and bad. If it is something time critical I am usually good at picking something and running with it. Even if that decision can take the long road to get there. All I am trying to say is, I've decided on some soon to be future options, and I know where my road is headed. Would you like to know? Of course you do... and the list begins below.

One, to retrain and get out of maintenance, and if that fails do my two years and vacate the institution that is the United States Air Force.

Two, work at my degree, and before anyone asks that degree will be a Bachelors in Architecture.

Three, start sketching and getting back to my artistic roots. I have not used my tools in a long while, and it is time to cultivate them again.

Other than that life is going, and going. I am saving funds, growing a baby sized investment, and paying my gross and disgusting credit card down. Short term goals are being taken down slowly day by day.

What else is happening in my world... I've broken out the ol' camera a few times, and have gotten some decent photos. I will continue to do so whilst on this glorious deployment (see item three).

That is about it for today, but I will be back on this medium before you all know it. Peace outside... for now.
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